As a very wise Weight Watcher's leader once said, "If you stumble on one step, are you just going to throw yourself down the rest of the flight?"
Apparently I am a glutton for pain and punishment. This appears to be a direct reflection on my all or nothing state of mind. Last night I had already eaten supper and wasn't a bit hungry; yet, I still was found hunched over the pan of (delicious if I must say so myself) bbq cheddar meatloaf scarfing a whole chunk of the warm greasy goodness. That first bite started the snowball down the destructive slope as it was followed by several spoonfuls of mashed potatoes, an English toffee covered ice cream bar, and a beer. Those last two items are not even things that normally appeal to me. I guess they didn't really last night, but they were just victims of the slippery slope.
So this morning, I picked myself up from the base of the "stairs" and started the new day; healthy snacks in hand and a belly ache reminder of last night's messy snowball.
~~JLM
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
The 5 Basics
What, How, Where, Why, When.......
Just as a disclaimer before I get started, I am writing this blog for me. To keep myself motivated and help hold myself accountable for my actions. I don't expect that anyone else will read it, but in case they do, I hope it motivates them as well.
I have not always been overweight. I can't blame it on my kids, quitting smoking, or anything else. I think what it is is just a pure and maybe-not-so-simple love of food. Or maybe a binging problem, or emotional eating problem, or control issue (jokes on me with this one, because apparently I actually can't always control what I eat). The bottom line is that I have been overweight for about 15 years. I am now morbidly obese. I suppose that the pounds crept on but it seems like one morning I woke up and the fat fairy had come to visit in the night.
Here is the biggest problem right NOW. I am being a TERRIBLE example for my children. I actually physically feel surprisingly good, but I am embarrassed to go to events with the kids; I go and put on a good front, but inside I am mortified. I feel like I am just not being the involved active parent that I should and can be. I am not as active as I should be, because I quite honestly am kind of embarrassed to be seen in public at all.
My daughter just turned 10. She is smart, compassionate, empathetic, stunningly beautiful, and a little over-weight. My son just turned 8. He is funny, clever, creative, kind, and loves to eat. I add the weight and food related descriptions, because they are part of who the kids are right now. I don't want them to ever be defined by those descriptions and sadly is certainly possible if I don't start being a better healthier example.
My goal is to get healthy primarily and hopefully in the process lose about 100 lbs. I have very little self-motivation. I tend to be an all or nothing kind of person -- eating not quite enough or binging.
I am 40 years old, work full time, have two biological kiddos, and am a foster parent. Yes, I am busy, but I can always find time to do the things that I want to do (read, watch episodes of Chopped, Biggest Loser, Hell's Kitchen -- do you notice a food/weightloss theme going on here??). Obviously I am capable of finding time for what I want.......I guess it is just a matter of how bad do I want this healthy life style.
My plan is just to blog as much as possible and start making babysteps toward a healthier me. I am going to try and keep this blog positive, but, according to my husband, my filter doesn't always work very well, so I can't make any promises.
And before I forget.......
One evening a couple of years ago, I was sitting between my two kids in the back of the car. I mentioned that it was like a mommy sandwich. My son looked lovingly at me and piped up that I was the fattest pickle ever. Hence the name of the blog. My hope is that with hard work and dedication, eventually I will become the hottest tomato ever.
~~JLM
Just as a disclaimer before I get started, I am writing this blog for me. To keep myself motivated and help hold myself accountable for my actions. I don't expect that anyone else will read it, but in case they do, I hope it motivates them as well.
I have not always been overweight. I can't blame it on my kids, quitting smoking, or anything else. I think what it is is just a pure and maybe-not-so-simple love of food. Or maybe a binging problem, or emotional eating problem, or control issue (jokes on me with this one, because apparently I actually can't always control what I eat). The bottom line is that I have been overweight for about 15 years. I am now morbidly obese. I suppose that the pounds crept on but it seems like one morning I woke up and the fat fairy had come to visit in the night.
Here is the biggest problem right NOW. I am being a TERRIBLE example for my children. I actually physically feel surprisingly good, but I am embarrassed to go to events with the kids; I go and put on a good front, but inside I am mortified. I feel like I am just not being the involved active parent that I should and can be. I am not as active as I should be, because I quite honestly am kind of embarrassed to be seen in public at all.
My daughter just turned 10. She is smart, compassionate, empathetic, stunningly beautiful, and a little over-weight. My son just turned 8. He is funny, clever, creative, kind, and loves to eat. I add the weight and food related descriptions, because they are part of who the kids are right now. I don't want them to ever be defined by those descriptions and sadly is certainly possible if I don't start being a better healthier example.
My goal is to get healthy primarily and hopefully in the process lose about 100 lbs. I have very little self-motivation. I tend to be an all or nothing kind of person -- eating not quite enough or binging.
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| My best feature -- and only one I am brave enough to share. |
I am 40 years old, work full time, have two biological kiddos, and am a foster parent. Yes, I am busy, but I can always find time to do the things that I want to do (read, watch episodes of Chopped, Biggest Loser, Hell's Kitchen -- do you notice a food/weightloss theme going on here??). Obviously I am capable of finding time for what I want.......I guess it is just a matter of how bad do I want this healthy life style.
My plan is just to blog as much as possible and start making babysteps toward a healthier me. I am going to try and keep this blog positive, but, according to my husband, my filter doesn't always work very well, so I can't make any promises.
And before I forget.......
One evening a couple of years ago, I was sitting between my two kids in the back of the car. I mentioned that it was like a mommy sandwich. My son looked lovingly at me and piped up that I was the fattest pickle ever. Hence the name of the blog. My hope is that with hard work and dedication, eventually I will become the hottest tomato ever.
~~JLM
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